Friday, January 04, 2008

A small decision

I heard from dear Greg. A missed call. So, I called back. I waited until I thought his shift would be a little slower, but I know enough about the business to know Fridays are busy all day.

"This is Greg," he said. I could hear the rush in his voice already.

"Am I catching you busy?"

"Yeah, but that's okay."

"This is Blogget."

"Oh hey! What's up?"

"I just thought I'd check back with you."

"I thought I'd let you know, the dates you're talking about won't work out for me. It turns out this month is bad for me. I'm going to have to make a trip to Houston at the end of the month." I read the subtext. That means he has to work his ass off the rest of the month, to make up for that expense.

"Oh wow," I said. "All right."

"How are things there?" he asked.

"Things are pretty good," I said. I don't know why I was caught off guard by the question. "It's cold!"

"I like cold," he said.

I laughed. "You do? Then you do need to come back to Colorado with me!"

"Uh-huh," he said, and repeated it. "Uh-huh!"

"Well, we're also looking at a weekend in February," I said.

"I'll know more about that towards the end of the month," he said. "Give me a call then and we'll work it out."

He was very busy, though, and had to go. I said "Take care," and he said, "You, too." And that was it.

I put down the phone and took a deep breath. Houston? What's going on in Houston? I'm intensely curious, so I couldn't help but wonder.

But here's the crux of it. He has his life. I have mine. Two weeks ago, those paths hadn't crossed. They did briefly. Will they again? I hope so, but in this moment, I don't know. In the meantime, I'll let his life flow without me, and mine will flow without him. Now and again, I'll stop and remember his beautiful face, his strong body, his sweet voice. When and if I stop doing that, I'll know our time has passed.


~ellen~ said...

Poor dear Greg. It sounds like his life is pretty complicated right now. Who knows where your relationship will go... He sounds nice, so I hope your time hasn't passed quite yet.

On the other hand, I am starting to need a chart to keep track of all the guys in your life! :o)

Sassy Lucy said...

You know I think you have a good plan to let life go the way it needs to go for now, and should you cross paths with Greg again then see what comes to pass.
I think you have much to learn about him yet....and maybe there are things you are better off not learning if this isn't to be?
God I sound like such an old lady some times handing out advice.
Just know it is given with care and kindness :)

Blogget Jones said...

LOL about the chart, Ellen! And Greg does have a lot to deal with right now. I wish I could be there for him...but we dropped rather suddenly into each other's lives. We're not there yet, and might never be, if we don't get the chance to be together again.

Blogget Jones said...

Lucy, you don't sound like that! I understand. I know, I have so many questions for him, so many things I keep thinking I should have said. But that has to wait....maybe indefinitely.

Sassy Blondie said...

I think your adoption of the "wait and see" approach is a good one. Just keep on doing what you're doing and living life.

Blogget Jones said...

Thanks, Sassy. I think I really don't have a choice, except to go slowly insane. Okay, maybe not so slowly!