Amid my decision-making and debating, things keep happening that seem to push me in different directions.
My boss sent us an email that she would be taking off half of yesterday, all of today, and Monday, to celebrate her daughter's 25th birthday. Oh yay, I thought. That means I can take my daughter's 20th birthday off next week! So, I submitted the leave request for that day. One day. ONE.
The request was approved, but hot on its heels was an email to us from my boss. She informed us that outside of the time off we already have approved, we are not allowed to request any more leave days for the duration of the summer.
It's not even July 1st.
She said that we are just too busy to be allowed time off. I'm sorry, but can't we decide that for ourselves? Are we not responsible for our own workload, like real adults?
My coworker has younger kids who are out of school for the summer. This means she can't spend any time with them on a normal summer vacation.
It just seems hardly fair, right?
I work hard. I meet my deadlines. I do high quality work. But I can't have ANY time off until after August 24th.
She had previously said no extended time off until after November 13th. That's why I'm leaving for England on November 14th.
This means that if I have to go to interview in Utah, I'll have to lie. I'll have to be "sick" or "need" another injection in my eye (which is happening every few weeks, anyhow). I hate having to do that, but I'm not sure what choice I have.
Of course, there's the ongoing question of my future here. I have the same title as the new people, with nothing to distinguish that I've been here for nearly a decade. The only advancement for me would be to have my boss's job, which I don't really want. It's way too political for me, and it would remove me from what I like doing. In short, I would not be happy.
So, I move on to the next step in the interview process with all of this in mind, and the sting of having my vacation time squelched.
It's time I earned, but am not allowed to use. Again, seems hardly fair. I work hard and am proud of what I accomplish. I don't need to be babysat and told when I can and cannot take time off, when I've earned it.
Would it be better in the corporate world? It's hard to say. I'm accustomed to academia, for better or worse. What would the private sector be like?
Do I take these things as a sign, pushing me in another direction? Or do I grin and bear it?
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